Sadness: Some Kinda Philosophy

I dunno but right now, it seems that I am holding on to this some kinda "philosophy"...

"Wallow in sadness so that even with the slightest speck of hope, you can be at your happiest." ©goldabidz

Sounds masochistic right? Ironically though, I find comfort in such words.

Photo source: http://3rdbillion.net/2013/10/sad-dog-pictures/

Oh yeah, maybe I'm just having one of those "sentimental" days.

My Final Artwork for 2013 ^^

Time flies so fast and today marks the end of 2013! Instead of looking back to the year that was, for now I'd rather look forward to the year that will be.:) 

Here are my aspirations for 2014, as symbolized by my final artwork for 2013 ---- 

My Customized and Handmade Planner Cover!:)

Unlike its "predecessor" which is more on the cool pastel side, the cover of my new planner screams of sparkle, shimmer and all that! 

It might be too lustrous for some but, hey, that's how I want my 2014 to be.:) I want to "radiate" endless energy and enthusiasm to be able to take giant leaps in reaching my goals and accomplishing even those I haven't had courage to do before. 

The color scheme is also reminiscent of our wedding motif. I hope 2014 will be another fruitful year for our marriage, in whatever means possible.

As for the gold ribbon, it also signifies me, Golda being my name haha. It simply means that one of my aspirations for the coming year is to have more opportunities to express my individuality, my skills and whatever that would speak of who/what I really am, sans fear of rejection or indifference.

The color violet (my fave!) is also for royalty. Maybe, just maybe, I will be a real princess in my own palace come 2014.:)

Finally, the heart on the cover denotes my yearning to give more love and care to family, friends and just about anybody in my own little way. Of course, such would not be possible without first acknowledging God's great love for humanity.

So that's my final artwork for 2013. More than a visual masterpiece (or at least that's how I perceive it lol), it is an unabashed display of my heart's desires for 2014. May all of these (and yours too!) come true, God-willing.

I wish everyone Wondrous & Joyful New Year!^^

------------------------------

UPDATE: January 27, 2014

After barely a month, the metallic coating on the letters I used for my name already began to chip off. Hence, I decided to just use plain foam cut-outs, material of which is similar to the ones I used for "2014".:) 

Here's the current look of my planner cover teehee...:)

Youngestus Spinsterus: A Retro Post

At the height of Harry Potter craze, I made a spell for myself which I published on my first ever, and now hidden, blog. And this is how it goes:

I ain't elaborating on what prompted me to create such "spell" but I guess it's pretty much obvious. Go figure.:D

What the hell was I thinking then?!!! With no antidote at hand, it's good that the spell didn't have any effect on me LOOOOOOOL.:D

Photo courtesy of www.zazzle.com

Anyway, I posted this just for laughs. No, I don't have anything against spinsters but the thought of self-targeted enchantment is simply amusing!:D 

A Day After the Accident

Before any reader starts freaking out, I'd like to start by emphasizing that the person involved in the accident is fine now, except for the fact that his wounds are still painful but no broken bones or anything worse than that.:)

On with the story.

Yesterday, my already hectic afternoon at the office was further rattled by an SMS I received from the Hubby saying that "Tito" got hit by a speeding motorcycle while walking on the pedestrian lane just outside our subdivision. The Hubby who followed my mom to the nearby hospital to assist in tending my injured uncle was obviously furious at the 24-year old offender who's not even from our City. @_@

It's the first time that someone from our household has figured in a road accident. So right there and then, I formed an evil image of the offender and all sorts of questions came into my mind such as HOW CAN THE DRIVER BE SO RECKLESS? HOW THE HELL CAN SOMEONE NOT RESPECT THE PEDESTRIAN LANE?  

After work, I rushed to the hospital and saw the offender in flesh. Huh! Good thing he did not attempt to escape or else...(Then again, how could he? His motorcycle was immediately confiscated by our City's traffic division Boys! Kudos to them, to Marikina Rescue 161 and most especially to passers-by/neighbors who quickly responded to the situation and extended much needed help) Anyway, I didn't utter a single word but shot him a nasty nasty nasty look. I then proceeded to check on my uncle who, thank God, was in a condition way better than I imagined. 

After several tests in the hospital, next up was the settlement at the police station. My uncle did not press charges anymore out of pity and in the spirit of forgiveness. However, the offender was made to shoulder the financial damage.

To cut the story short, we were able to go home after a long day. We rode the jeepney home not knowing that we would meet another "accident" - the tire right under our seats suddenly exploded in the middle of the road!!! Another good thing for that fateful day though, the vehicle was being driven at low speed so it maintained its balance and all the passengers were able to alight unharmed. I couldn't thank God enough for sparing us. I don't think I'd be able to take two road accidents in a day!@_@

I know my uncle's accident yesterday is nothing compared to those which resulted to heavy bloodshed, paralysis, or even death. But still, accident however petty, is something that nobody would want to wish for, right? 

Yes I am ranting because I have a little hangover but at the end of the day, I guess it's also nice to see the silver linings of it all. To name a few:

1. I am amazed with how "in-laws", despite the fact that they're not blood-related, can truly be a family supporting each other in times of adversity. Case in point: My uncle is actually my mom's brother-in-law. My Hubby is an "in-law" to both my mom and uncle. And they were the ones who were together during the accident (I got into the picture only towards the end :)) An awwwwwww moment indeed!

2. To be fair to the offender, he seemed apologetic to my uncle, and even to my mom. He did not talk to me and Hubby, probably out of fear because we were the ones who maintained an unfriendly aura until the end. I would like to assume that the unexpected nice treatment from my uncle, despite what happened, had taken its toll on him. I do wish he would always remember the incident and always tread the road (literally and figuratively) with utmost care. But most especially, I wish he'd pay it forward and exhibit kindness to other people as well.

3. Recalling my mom's account on how people helped in making the rescue possible, I can't help but think that yeah, "bayanihan" is still existent.

4. God loves us so much that He gave this wake-up call to us. It made us realize that anything can happen in an instant so we should always be ready to face Him. Need I say more? 

I am quite happy with all the silver linings but going back to road accidents, I still wish to emphasize something. It's up to anybody to agree with me but I'm telling it anyway.

Roads are not made solely for vehicles, these wheeled things should not reign supreme over people. Lack of respect for pedestrian lanes is lack of respect for humanity!

End of my sharing.:)

Stone is MySelf: A Retro Post

Here's another RETRO-POST which was first published in my "goldabidz" blog last Sept. 25, 2007. I'm thinking, maybe this had to be created, this had to come into existence so that 6 years after, in one of my not-so-perky moments like tonight, I would have something to relate to. Excuse me then, I will let my younger and seemingly more profound self "speak" for now.

Stone and Self... Quote Explained

PHOTO SOURCE:
http://cdn.hdwallpaperspics.com/uploads/2012/12/vista_wallpaper_
stone_pattern_wallpaper-normal.jpg

For some time now, these words have occupied the shout out box in my Friendster account: "The World is an Unknowing Witness to the Merging of the Stone and Self"

Now, what does this seemingly profound thought really means? For starters, let me define the terms in the context of my experience.

WORLD All the people around me, who know me, have chanced upon me in one way or

another- family, friends, co-workers, acquaintances, enemies, etc.

UNKNOWING "not aware of" OR could also be "insensitive to"

WITNESS one who has personal knowledge of something (from Merriam-Webster),

one who has seen, heard, or encountered something

MERGING becoming one, being the same

SELF that's me

STONE being numb, unfeeling, indifferent, hardened....just like the stone

Now that I have defined the terms, I hope you now have an idea of what the quote really means. If it's still a blur, let me put it bluntly...

In life, I always encounter hardships, sufferings, predicaments or watchamacalit, and most of the time, I'm able to survive them through my defense mechanism, which is numbness. It is such an art I've mastered that whenever I feel like giving up, my system almost automatically sets aside (and then I become apathetic to) the unpleasant things and gives way to the ones which are not so upsetting to me. That is why I still manage to wear a huge smile on my face despite all the odds.

Yes, that mask of happiness... that mask which people see, or choose to see, in me but not everyone knows that once in a while, chaos and misery lurk behind it... Oh well, I couldn't care less, actually, I would still want people to perceive me as someone always in high spirit, someone who is cheerful and contented. Never mind if they just remain as "Unknowing Witnesses" every time the "Self" starts to merge with the "Stone"...